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Thursday, June 07, 2007
-9:01 PM
I've decided I shall now only blog when I feel like blogging. I mean, what's the point of publicly announcing important events in your life or revelations that strike you, when you don't even feel like blogging? And nobody's gonna read in the long run except yourself anyway. SO. I conclude I shall only blog when time and attitude allows me to. No, this is not self-consolation.
Anyway, I was working on my NHHS essay (after slacking all day reading Ouran on the computer) and I was using the extremely angsty and excellent plot I adapted from Liwen and Syanni's yet-to-be manga. So it struck me, that even though the given topic was a free-topic, "Inspiration", since it was organised by the school's PSG and not the English department, I should be writing something truly inspirational and touch hearts, and not simply because I want to write something angsty and dramatic. This is from the point of view of someone who wants to win. And plainly, I want to win. But naturally, I understand pride comes before a fall. I am equally ready to not win and be utterly dashed to pieces when I do not win even a consolation prize.
So I'm pondering about it. Should I write another essay about true inspiration, or stick to my melodramatic plot? I really want to win. But I don't want to forego my writing.
But I am almost certain if I submit this plot, I will not win.
You think it's easy: Just follow your heart. Like, whatever. I know I have to do what
I want. But frankly, I want to be better than other people, too. Let's face it, I'm Singaporean.
Being-better-than-other-people versus do-what-i-want.
Because I feel like it, I'm going to do what I want. Of course, being lazy has absolutely nothing to do with it.
If you have issues about this too, TAG!
And I'll probably read your tag two months later.
Til next time I feel like blogging!
