and as she walks
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
I am Yours
the news
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
-8:28 PM
Hello!!!
I'm good and growing. I'm enjoying my life. Nothing relatively depressing has befallen me of yet.
And I feel guilty being so blessed. Yes, why can't it be you? Why can't I be lonely and emo and depressed? You already are blessed. But of course, I don't understand.
I have homework. And I need to study! And I need to write people's letters! Birthdays, birthdays. I gave Dixin her birthday flowers today :D She says she loves them, because nobody got her flowers before. Next time she performs, I'll have to remember to get her some. Tomorrow is Xinglin's and Yi Shuo's birthdays! A birthday is a good day to bless someone, even though everyday should be a good day. But birthdays are special, no? And Yanting's is on Sunday with Dixin's! Maybe spending Saturday afternoon with her? I've exhausted creative birthday ideas. Sorry Yanting! Right now I just want to spend time with you guys and enjoy my time with my friends.
And my birthday falls in the middle of the common tests. On the A. Maths and Social Studies day. Fantastic. Last year too! Why?! It's my special day! (but every exam day is somebody's special day)
I've learnt that to appreciate people, you have to take a certain amount of time to spend talking with them. So talk to me, people!
Weekend is coming. And my time slips away! Because I wasted it thinking about how long my weeks are.
Let's go.
Friday, January 25, 2008
-5:24 PM
I attempted to upload my short films online but... it took forever. So.
It's interesting how two people's blogs can be so vastly different. One with not a single word in proper English, and another with no grammatical errors at all. One that carries no substantial information, another that tells me just enough, and keeps enough to make me glad.
I should have stayed away from the computer. Once again I end up sighing that I shouldn't have compromised or let go of something.
Well, well, well.
Let's go.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
-9:06 AM
While everyone is happily settled in school, I'm here at home, safe from the cold winds and stress of school life.
Obviously, I'm absent from school.
So what does one do at a time like this?
Watch music videos, reflect on myself, spend well-needed quality time with myself and God. This means WRITING! YAY! As well as homework and studying, for a small percentage of the time, of course.
I haven't written a complete anything in a very long time. It's like I've been hanging around living, doing what I can at any point of time, but not commiting to writing or anything. I don't know.
Elizabeth's blog is depressing. But what to do but be strong for her? :) My friend and sister, we're here.
Our region's blog has finally been created! YES!!! It's one step closer to uniting us. I don't like comparing us to other regions, because I love how even though we're small, we are always open and cheering for one another. I think we're awesome just the way we are, and of course by God's grace we're going to multiply like crazy! But people, some of us are going to have to WAKE UP and get serious. I do feel, however, that I'm serious enough for all of us -_-. My prayer is that we can rely on each other, knowing that though we each have our weaknesses, we can love and grow together.
I am so mushy. It's a good thing no one reads my blog :D
I catch myself thinking of the future sometimes. "Worrying about tomorrow" is what the Bible calls it. Don't worry, I'll work on it.
Because some videos are really worth posting, and I'm proud of the quality, talented production the Edge has done. This is the youth church I belong to, hey!
I've got the promises of God, and I'm comfortably numbing my bum on the computer table chair. Overly-blessed symptoms coming on.
I'll be writing if you need me.
Monday, January 21, 2008
-5:48 PM
Big font? Hopefully less squashed.
Had my monthly cramps today! Not as bad though :) Tomorrow will be better!
Does Cheyenne read my blog? Girl, stop thinking so much. Let God do the thinkind for you.
Now my font is so big, I don't dare to write too much.
I have been looking for Japanese songs, particularly the beautiful pieces from Studio Ghibli works. My mother and I are full-out fans of Studio Ghibli. YAY!
Something you may not know about me?: I imagine a lot. I have problems controlling my mind sometimes. Maybe because I'm always so fast in class that when others ask questions, I get bored and imagine stuff to occupy myself, and thus it becomes a habit. Someone shoot me for my pride (figuratively, please).
So, when I seem to be listening very carefully in class, who knows? Maybe nothing is going on inside except some weird story/film plot I have. Or dreams of my future. That kind of girl-thoughts stuff.
Anything new? I've been praying a lot lately. There's still a lot I can do for God, like join the prayer ministry, or the worship ministry, or finish learning guitar, or start discipling, or going block visitations, or attending prayer meetings/evening services, or calling all my friends to remind them they're loved.
I needed to get that off my chest. No stress, man. It's in God's timing.
Financially, I'm trying not to be too bothered. God gives in amazing ways. When I needed cash for the building fund, my grandmother gave me a blue note. :D!!!
In the end, I didn't get to pay my pledge, but I've been boosted and blessed by Him when all else failed :)
I'll keep living for Him all I can, and even beyond.
What to do? :)
Ta.
Monday, January 14, 2008
-6:06 PM
I want BIGGER CLEARER font! It's so difficult to read my own words.
My brother's friends are in the house. Noisy...
Let's see. Eh. Lately I've been praying, listening, struggling, controlling, smiling. I've started smiling more.
I actually practise, you know. Every morning, smile in the mirror. I make my own day by smiling at myself. Such a lovely sweet smile :)
I'm controlling going on the computer because the internet holds a million horrible temptations (every single Japanese drama serial out there), and makes me think too much. I have a terrible imagination.
The more I listen to other people around me, the more I feel old. Why do you laugh at that? It's not funny, it's immature!
But maybe I just feel left out. Although I doubt it.
Every part of my life I try to live for God. But I do try too hard sometimes. Then I get stressed out and tired. I don't like that.
I've been getting cocky about my intelligence. Mwahaha. Must control...
http://www.miniature-earth.com/me_english.htm
Must watch! Open your eyes to the world.
I can't wait for the weekends :) I always feel my best around people of God. I've been trying to psyche up the fellow Christians in my school. Come on people! Start something!
I'm gonna be more undignified than this
Boys. Loud. Ugh. Control.
Blogging is fun. But writing in my diary is fun too.
I have a great life. Then sometimes I get the sneaky fear something bad is going to happen and ruin it all.
No matter what, I want God.
YEAH!!!!!!!!
Ta~
Friday, January 11, 2008
-8:41 AM
E-learning Day.
Right. There's no work online. But how can I keep a clear conscience unless I'm refreshing the page every minute?!
Alright I found it. Due to my inattentiveness in assembly I suppose. Though many people would have given up if they did not press the little plus sign at the side.
Forgive me.
Going to do Chemistry online.
Ta!
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
-6:09 PM
Ahhhhhhhhhh.
Nobody knows about my blog. But that's not the news.
I have nothing to blog about. My life has been interesting, striving every moment for God, but nothing happened.
Ahhhhhhhhhh.
We're having prayer and fasting week, so I'm fasting daily for a week. It's very testing, but I do enjoy it as I use my weakness to get closer to God.
Keep walking...
Ta.