the news
Saturday, December 29, 2007
-10:05 PM
A blog is where you write so people who know you can understand where you are at this point of time.
Ah. Enlightening discovery I have concluded.
I love our region's youth. I love that even though we're small, we have hope. I love that I have a place there, even though I'm not much.
I'm going back to school soon, and I'm going to have to juggle between God and life. God first!
If anyone needs to know, I'm listening. Anyway, I'm glad for who I am. Maybe I'll meet an accident, or scar myself tomorrow. I'll move on.
Thanks!
I'm a strange person. I'm glad I've started to let God grow me.
I've started writing again. I stopped in the holidays, because it was quite meaningless. But I've started a slightly new plot, and I'm motivated by God now.
Refresh everyday.
I'll be keeping my distance from the computer, because frankly, there's nothing much holy here. But let's keep trying. I need to spend some time away from manga and drama love, so I better not come on at all.
Ok. Keep trying!
Ta.
Friday, December 21, 2007
-11:40 AM
Oh my goodness. I blogged an entire page and it didn't save. No!!!!!!Ok. Basically I blogged about my day. I woke up, ate yesterday's shepard's pie, and came online to finish the last episodes of Galileo and Yukan Club.I think I'm better off not watching any new drama serials. I know, it'll be painful, but I must move on. One day, after 'O' Levels, I will begin again.Galileo is basically a nice show, but a bit overdone trying to be original. It's about a lady detective and a physics lecturer solving scientific mysteries. Who on earth would commit such complex crimes in the first place?!Yukan Club was, on the other hand, the kind of low-budget drama that is made to keep fans happy. It was lame enough to keep interest, but I wish they had followed through the Seishiro/Noriko relationship.What else did I blog about? Oh yeah. For the rest of the day I plan to do my daily devotion and finish the rest of my English and Maths homework. I also plan to bake my cookies of horror. They are horrible because I am not a baker. I might also work out on Wii Sports, which was made for pathetic people like me.This is so uninteresting. I really do not dig this blogging thing. But I like coming online to type something about me. Must be the 自恋 part of me talking.I went out with Dixin yesterday, and she offered me a short-term job. I should really take it because I need the money (Christmas has blown my budget) and I need to get my lazy butt out of the house. But, being the blessed spoilt child I am, my dad decided to keep me as a non-working citizen for as long as possible. "Prepare for school reopening. There's plenty of time to work next time." Later he relented that if I wanted to work, I could. No problem, dad. I'm fine with sticking at home.I always had the dream of going out to work for only a few years, then getting married, going on missions, being a housewife and writing books at home the rest of my life.Wow. I have absolutely no ambition. Laugh at me, but seriously, I'm the laziest person I know. You should be suprised. Maybe being transparent starts from blogging, because it's a diary which everyone can see.I want my blog to be read. This is the "need people's approval" part of me talking. I need to work on that part of me too.Listening to Corrinne May's Beautiful Seed. Her songs are so simple and sweet. That's what real songs are made of. Sometimes we forget how things were made to be. Corrinne May's songs are what real songs are. When I was praying at youth camp, I felt that was what I was made to do, to be. When we worshipped at youth camp, I felt, that's how worship should be.
I took this emo photo of my youth camp roommates on the beach of Rompin. Is this the beginning of succumbing to photo blogs?!ok. That's it for our 101th post. :D
Thursday, December 20, 2007
-8:33 PM
Welcome!!!
It's our 100th post anniversary!
I changed the blogskin (what do you think?), chucked all my links from the redundant 'frens-linx.blogspot.com' over, added music on my tagboard page, and got a new tagboard.
Whew.
I also made my font bigger.
I read other peoples' blogs, and I think my blog might be weird. People copy entire MSN conversations on their blogs o_O Maybe I need to take lessons. Should I start uploading photos too? I used to do that for awhile.
Eh. Let me see. I should recount my entire schedule for today. Right. I went out with Dixin and borrowed money from her (thanks darling ;)), then I came home and napped and went out for dinner at my mother's net outreach. Apparently my mom is the net English-Chinese interpretor.
My maid, Sofi, is a very lovely girl. She's ignorant, but she's very sweet. She's always trying her best and she doesn't give up no matter what. She's got the nest attitude. I would have perished under everything she's been through.
I'm weak. In a lot of ways. Why? I want to know. But it's through the weak God shows His works best. The thing is I've been so good at covering my weaknesses (maybe not really), that it's not very obvious.
I want to belong too, and understand the inside jokes, and have friends who encourage me, and counsel my friends not only about shallow stuff like who's prank-calling them, or their two-minute crushes. I want to listen and counsel and love and do something only I can do and that people need me for.
In the end, I'm just as shallow and weak as anyone. My dad tells me not to have such high expectations in friendship. But I don't think it's impossible. I'm still hoping for it.
I'm praying for that kind of friendship, not only for myself. Maybe I've been selfish far too long. Friendship comes with sacrifice?
I'm weak and I can't do much. I'll write for all I'm worth, but in the end I'm going to have to trust God to fill in my large gaping blanks.
I'll listen when you want me to. Can you listen to me too?
Heh. I think this might be the monthly mood swings talking. I'm an emo wreck.
Let's move on.
Onto our 101th post!
Ta~
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
-11:43 AM
I'm blogging my 99th post as I search for a nice new blogskin. Maybe I should make my own.
Nah.
I just got a haircut. And I got a bit angry with myself because I don't really like it but I don't know what to do about it. I'll probably go back and get another haircut.
I've been going out more lately. I still love my family. But I'm finally going out more. And many many people say... Amen.
I have a hidden passion: friendstering. And no, not like, messing with my own Friendster account (which is dead), but finding people online. So many people are so honest on their blog and Friendster profiles. It's so easy what you can discover online -_-
I don't like looking for blogskins. When I find a nice one, it's just... typical blogskin. Give me something!
Right. So, 99th post down. Goodbye black and white! I'm getting some colour out of myself!
See you at our 100th post!
Monday, December 17, 2007
-4:38 PM
CHANGE. LET'S REVAMP!!!
Look at me last time. I was an emo wreck! So caught up in myself. I was
so cultured and intelligent. HA. I laugh in my face.
And I must learn how to blog about important things! I always don't blog properly. Even I don't look at my own blog.
I went for YOUTH CAMP!!!! YAY!!!! And I came back different.
Changing is such a troublesome job. But I know it must be done. How I wish if in the first place I didn't need to change. But then I wouldn't need to sacrifice or put in any effort and that would just be wrong, to gain so much without a struggle. But in some ways, I'm gaining so much more than I could ever struggle for. I know it's possible.
But my face still holds me down. I still fight against God's will. When His orders come I know it clearly enough but if I don't like it, I deny it straight. And think too much to go around it. But God's orders are orders. Fullstop. I still imagine a lot too. I'm still working at it and I'm gonna get better at it. Stopping to imagine, I mean.
I've become a prayer person. Prayer is power, and don't you doubt it. There's nothing like it.
It's gonna be tough, especially since all my priorities have twisted around into something so not the inside me. Ha. It's time to be transparent. I'm not going to pretend I'm cultured or intelligent anymore. No more clever comments.
I still like drama serials. I still like the same kind of music. But I've cleaned up my mind, my heart, my relationship with God. It's different now.
I'm gonna get a new blogskin to match my theme. Soon. If I remember.
Because it's ok if I forget things like my blog.
There are more important things to remember.
Ta.
